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May 14th, 2008

I ALONE

I wrote this a long time ago, well not really long ago but about three years ago. It was around the time i had made the biggest mistake of my life. I walked out on the girl i lved more than anyone or anything. I was an asswhole and for lack of better words a complete fuck up, I knew i was and i had only one choice, well in my head it was the only choice and a very stupid one.

After about a month or so i noticed i had made this terrible mistake and that i had been i went into a deep depressing state of mind wich forced me to break down and cut myself. so after a while i started writing a song but in doing so found that it made a much better poen and it was explaining so much.

I alone
In the midst of nights that are endless, I sit waiting for the days so lonely. The thought of you clouds my judgment for i know not what to do but drown in tears. I passed to you my heart and with you it shall stay. For you to judge and you to do with as you please. Till forever I shall sit in limbo waiting for a glimpse of you, your smile your face so pure. I know nothing but pain.

I choose not to surrender but continue to suffer from the thoughts of you. Dreaming a life I love and living a life I hate. I bleed for me and not for you, For you have bled my heart dry though my eyes are wet. I can not forget the times of yesterday. Cannot help but remember, cannot help but be scared.

All alone i stand afraid and weak. I am only one man scarred and disgusted because of what i have become.

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Posted by allthatremains at 03:25 on May 14th, 2008

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SelaMoonshine Feeling happy	Posted on 11:05PM on May 16th, 2008 Well... at least you knew that you screwed up. A lot of people will never admit when they're wrong. But, thanks for posting this. I gave me something to think about.
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